Interesting Statements

It's been awhile since I've blogged... Things have been really crazy(It's Teen Challenge, when isn't it crazy here?) but I've finally sat down to type this post. Mostly because something really stood out to me this week.

One of the biggest rules you can break in your internship here is being in a relationship. Yep. You read that correctly. You're not allowed to date. At all.

Now, I've been on one official date in my entire life. So when I read over the rules this past June, I had absolutely no issues with that rule. At 19, I knew that I wasn't ready to be in a relationship(Did I mention that I'll be 20 in less than two weeks?). I still don't think that I'm ready to be in one.

I came to Boise on July 30th of 2013. It's been quite a whirlwind thus far. In September, all of the interns of the 12 centers in the Pacific Northwest region of Teen Challenge got together for what is called an "Intern Intensive." As far as I can tell, it is mostly leadership classes. I guess I'll go to the next one in February and learn more then. This intensive also fell on the weekend of Spiritual Emphasis. That's really a thing that happens once or twice a year with all regions/centers.

While I was at this intensive/Spiritual Emphasis I met another intern. Yes, this intern is a male. GASP.

What I thought was starting off as an innocent friendship quickly grew into us talking everyday. Sounds innocent, right? Ha! WRONG. Had our conversations been about Ron Swanson we MIGHT have been okay. That just wasn't the case though. But, of course, neither my leadership nor my coworkers are stupid. They figured me out pretty quick even though they didn't say anything.

Well I finally told this other intern that we couldn't talk anymore. He said he liked me. He said he wanted to pursue a relationship with me. He said he was heartbroken and I took it really hard. I mean, I bawled like a baby because I felt so bad. Silly girl.

That very same day(or maybe the day after), my boss called wanting to know what was going on. So I told her everything. She said she was proud of me and that was the end of it. Or so I thought.

Sometime later I was talking to my auntie on the phone and she asked me a question. "What happens if another guy decides he wants to start talking to you?"

HA.

Oops. Spoke too soon.

A couple of weeks later I reconnect with an old friend from high school. We exchanged numbers and started texting. He asked if he could call me and I said yes. We talked a couple of times. Then comes the text where he says that when my internship is over/when I come home that he'd like to pursue a relationship with me.

*facepalm*

What's funny is that he had no idea that I had a huge crush on him in high school. Oh it was bad. However, that was NOT my intention with us becoming friends again. Refer back to previous story. I explained to him that I'm not allowed to be in a relationship and that if my boss decides that he's becoming a distraction that we wouldn't be allowed to talk anymore.

This time was quite different though. I wanted to do the right thing. I had never wanted to follow the rules more than I had at that moment. Not because I didn't like this guy(I still really do even though I didn't tell him), but because I do. I believe that The Lord blesses obedience and I knew that if we even had a chance that I would have to do the right thing no matter how hard it would be.

So I called him and left him a voicemail saying that I had some news for him. However, good or bad, I didn't want to say it through a voicemail. I at least wanted him on the other end of the phone. I was sweating bullets because my boss said that if he didn't call that night that I would have to text him the news.

That night, no call.

The next morning I deleted everything. Texts, phone calls, and his number. I wanted zero temptation in front of me. I leave my phone alone for all of 15 minutes to run into a store and get back to a missed call. It was him but because I had deleted his number I had to rack my brain to figure it out.

I had text my boss that same morning saying that I had deleted everything and she gave me permission to talk to him if he contacted me. So I called him back...

He didn't try to guilt me or make me feel bad. In fact, he was extremely understanding and said that he didn't want to be a hindrance to me or my internship. Total 180 from the intern who has the exact same rules as me.

I come home in August so we'll see where things go.

Now here's the explanation to the title: Interesting Statements

Both of these guys said that they would wait for me.

WHAT.

I'll admit, I'm still flattered. The latter I can actually understand saying that(the last time we talked was 5 years ago and we had already been friends), but the intern? HELLO!! You'd known me all of a month at the time that you said this...

What would cause someone to make such a bold statement(Oh, he also said, "I love you." Via text, but still, WHY?) to someone they've known a month? Physical attraction, MAYBE. Now, I neither doubt myself as a human being or as a daughter of the Most High King. I AM God's child; however, I could have been an ax murderer before Teen Challenge you intern you!

Do you believe in love at first sight? Or putting your life on hold for 8 months to wait for someone that you've only known a month?