Mistakes Continued

Have you ever looked at a situation from the totally wrong perspective? Well I certainly have. Instead of thinking, "Oh my gosh, I really could have prevented this by going to the right person," I was afraid of judgment. I was afraid that karma would come at me because I was doing the exact same thing that my stepmom did. She married a man(my dad) that is 18 years older than her. Having judged her for that, I was so afraid that I would be judged for merely having feelings for a man that much older than me. Had I put that thought of judgment aside and just put things into the light I could have avoided this whole fiasco. My feelings aren't a sin. I didn't directly act on them. As far as I know this man doesn't know how I feel. I pray to God that he doesn't. I've already complicated my life enough because of my choices and decisions. In hindsight, I'd rather be judged for the age difference than what I did, which was tell my student about my feelings. It was wrong on so many levels. I traded one boundary for another. So now I have a choice: I can learn and grow and move on, or I can wallow in this let it stew and let it hinder not only myself but my students as well. I think the choice is pretty obvious. God loves me through my mistakes and my failures and now I just have to learn to do the same thing for myself instead of beating myself up.